Yes, the inevitable has happened: I've turned into a veget
able.
Yes, I can no longer disguise my sandy root-like appearance. The days of waiting for my one-and-only to return and the anticipation of the upcoming exams, coupled with the fact that TV provides a good distraction, has morphed my being, especially my mind, into a vegetable.
Woohoo! I have spent more time this week on the couch, watching TV, surfing the Internet, eating protein-less meals and sleeping than I have probably done so in my entire life. This is what I've been reduced to. I officially l
ack all motivation to: study or, for lack of a better description, live.
How did this happen? Am I depressed? Or am I just lazy? Or am I just procrastinating? I think definitely the first option seasoned with the latter two, like a sort of two-minute noodle depressing supper. Yup.
So, without further ado, I will shortly be getting my act together. I can no longer stand by as my life lives around me and I remain uninvolved. I used to really fun, I used to be crazy, I used to be confident and I used to be fearless. I use to be bouncy. And I miss that, SO....
I will be seeing a psych.
I will be seeing a dietitian.
I will be going back to gym.
I need to stop feeling sorry for myself while others become more awesome - i.e. Micaela - being fearless, Vanessa - moving on up and kicking butt in the process, Janel - starting a career, getting married, and Janice - turning into a freakin' super model. Oh, and yes, everyone growing up while I whimper behind like a sad puppy. Fuck that shit.
That said - you guys better hold me accountable - I've been known to turn and run!
Love,
Your friend,
The vegetable
able.Yes, I can no longer disguise my sandy root-like appearance. The days of waiting for my one-and-only to return and the anticipation of the upcoming exams, coupled with the fact that TV provides a good distraction, has morphed my being, especially my mind, into a vegetable.
Woohoo! I have spent more time this week on the couch, watching TV, surfing the Internet, eating protein-less meals and sleeping than I have probably done so in my entire life. This is what I've been reduced to. I officially l
ack all motivation to: study or, for lack of a better description, live.How did this happen? Am I depressed? Or am I just lazy? Or am I just procrastinating? I think definitely the first option seasoned with the latter two, like a sort of two-minute noodle depressing supper. Yup.
So, without further ado, I will shortly be getting my act together. I can no longer stand by as my life lives around me and I remain uninvolved. I used to really fun, I used to be crazy, I used to be confident and I used to be fearless. I use to be bouncy. And I miss that, SO....
I will be seeing a psych.
I will be seeing a dietitian.
I will be going back to gym.
I need to stop feeling sorry for myself while others become more awesome - i.e. Micaela - being fearless, Vanessa - moving on up and kicking butt in the process, Janel - starting a career, getting married, and Janice - turning into a freakin' super model. Oh, and yes, everyone growing up while I whimper behind like a sad puppy. Fuck that shit.
Love,
Your friend,
The vegetable
ok then boomba. its good to be proactive as much as you can. i beklieve in you!! maybe sync your ans janice's gym times? or whatever. i know u can do this, u just gotta find a plan that suits you best, something that puts your best interest atheart.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all I'm super proud of you for doing what needs to be done instead of wallowing in it which is very easy to do. It takes courage to stand up and make the change. Secondly I think that you are still all those things you used to be, we all have times when we dont feel 100% ourselves, and then we do what we have to and get right back to it. I KNOW that you can do this. It will be hard and you won't feel like doing it, but don't give in to the vegetable, force yourself. We are always much stronger than we realize, and once you get over the initial unwillingness you'll start feeling better and then it will become a lifestyle. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeletei totally agree with swordwaif :)
ReplyDeleteAnd so do I!!!
ReplyDeleteI went through veggie mode before i got my job.. and it can be very hard to get out of.
I still have days like it haha.
But so proud you are taking action!
I believe in you bouncy one :-)
Ah thanks guys :) For an update - check my post!
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