On the other side of normal.

Another update on my wierd topsy turvy life people ::)

Well, the baby went in to see the heart specialist today, so the rents are gone and since junior is too sick for school, im working a full day today. I don't really mind. Got taken out by a very nice guy yesterday who actually took me to a snamke park :) Now this park doesn't just house snakes ans other miscellaneous reptiles, but also big cats, monkeys, birds and various othercool wildlife. it was even better because the entire park is built around al these big lovely trees, ans the animals are well cared for. So it wasn't a completely depressing experience;seeing animals in cages and all that. It was on the hartebeespoot dam aswell, so there was a 'pleasuer baot" (i kid you not) leqving every half hour. I laughed every time they announced its name over the intercom :P and the food was great too.

Overall, i had such a good sunday. Went to a nice church that i'm pretty sure won't satrt prayig over my demoness ways every time they look at me. Went and spent a lovely day with a new friend. Saw prince of persia, very good. By the end of the day i felt good and real and relaxed. Exactly what i needed after the last couple of weeks which have made my mother tell e i should go back on my anxiety meds that i was taking last year. Yesterday reminded me that im only human, and everyone needs a break.

Like i said the lst few weeeks have been a special kind of hell for me. I wont go inot details, but it has made me realise that i still have alot of crap to be sorted out that is conveneintly locked away during my good days, and breaks free when i get uner any srt of pressure. this is not good. cant have the monsters coming out of the bed verytime things get tough. the solution is: get rid of the monsters.

So, like candi said, i think im going to find someone proffessional i can talk to, cos i got to much baggage. and i dont wanna become my fathers daughter, dependednt on drugs and unable to live in this reality cos my demons keep dragging me down.

anyway, im feeling pretty chipper today :)

love ya guys,
me